Once upon a time, I moved on Hallowe’en and like all moves, it was a truly scarey experience. But I want to talk about two moves later, the time, I moved to Z., a crossroads hamlet, an hour north of the city, hard to find on the map. Like most other newcomers, I moved there because I could afford it.
It was the second time a home-owning partnership had dissolved on me, only this time, the housing market had boomed. Whereas the first time, 10 years before, I could afford to buy a hovel on my own, city hovels were now well beyond my price range.
As luck would have it, I arrive with a Newfie dog, 7 cats and a badly sprained ankle. My partner and I have had 3 dogs and we divided them according to poundage. Bella, the Newfie is all I can handle, weight-wise. The 7 cats belong to my son and his girl friend, who are quitting the city in an anti-police protest. There have been demonstrations, friends have been roughed up. My 22 year-old son, his girl friend and the cats are seeking safe-haven with me in the country -in a white clapboard house with arched windows and gables, next door to the church.
The first load of furniture and all the animals have been dumped, my bed set up in deference to my lamed state and the young people have departed with their friends to pick up another load. Silence falls as silence can in the country, even at a crossroads. The cats don’t know me or trust me and have sequestered themselves in the summer kitchen, a one story extension at the back of the house. Belle has clumped upstairs after me and heaved herself up onto the bed, deaf to all arguments that Newfoundland dogs are too big to be bedfellows. I stand in the middle of the bedroom, gazing at the 3 pitch black, uncovered windows. No problem actually because there is nobody out there.
What about in here? A house built in 1889 surely had seen its share of death. Could it be haunted?
Fortunately, I fall immediately into the righteous sleep of the newly-moved who have badly sprained ankles, and barely notice when the second load of furniture arrives.
It is a chaotic next few days as 8 animals and 3 people sort out their roles. The big black dog soon learns her place relative to nose scratching cats. Gradually we clear paths between rooms and a nest of seating where we can take refuge and eat. Unfortunately, my son, Ben, steps on a rusty nail and we have to find the nearest walk-in clinic for a tetanus shot. Shocking how far away everything is in the country.
Unfortunately #2, now Ben and I are both limping on our left foot. I follow him through the kitchen one day. He is going out into the summer kitchen, while I am turning into the cooking area past the island. It looks like a gimp parade and I am just enjoying a quiet laugh, when another figure rushes past, arms thrashing and clothes flying. And laughing.
“Ben,” I yell, “did you see that?”
“What?” he calls back.
We meet at the door. There is no one else there.
“An Indian – a First Nations person – whatever. Brandishing something -seemed like an axe, doing a kind of war dance and laughing!”
We stare at each other in silence. Well, if you are going to have a ghost, it is probably best to have a laughing ghost.
Some time later, I learn that the hamlet sits on the portage route up to Lake Simcoe.
Things settle down. We buy Ben a very old Ford pickup truck guaranteed to work just fine and he begins renovations. I begin commuting to work. Oh God, why did I ever move here? Surely, there is a shorter route. And there is. It takes only 60 minutes, not 75. Two hours a day, am I out of my mind? Etc, etc.
Ben is tearing up the floor in the dining room. But no wait, he has to tear out the roof in the summer kitchen. It’s leaking. There’s been a fire up there at some point.
And something in the house is not happy.
I know it’s not the native trickster. Anyway, he’s a wayfarer not a resident.
My city-bred son and girlfriend tend to vanish back to the city until late into the night. One night, Ben calls me around 10 P.M.
“We’re staying in town for the night,” he says.
“Okay,” I reply. I do have experience living alone. I lived alone in the hovel.
There is dead air on the phone line.
“Ben?” I querry.
“Uh, have you seen the ghost?” he asks.
What a truly terrible time to ask such a question, a dark rainy October night.
“I don’t actually see her,” I reply, “except in my mind’s eye, but I know she’s there.”
“Yeah,” he says, “she’s small and she wrings her hands.”
“She’s upset about the work you’re doing. I keep telling her we’re just making her house better.”
“Me too,” he says. “I didn’t want to mention her before. Are you all right staying alone?”
I want to say that I was a lot better before he outed the ghost, but I just go on reassuringly and get off the phone. I stand there in the kitchen. She is standing just out of sight beside the stairs. She is short and thin, wearing an apron which she has balled up in her hands. I feel so cold that I might as well be naked.
I give myself a shake.
“I’m going to put on the kettle for tea before I go to bed,” I announce.
A passing cat, the orange one, meows. No bristling, no raised hackles. Belle ambles along the hallway, right through the ghost lady. Co-residents. We have to get along.
The title search arrives in the mail. One family, the Toves, owners of a car dealership, owned the house for much of the century. One of them,Daisy died at the Village of Z., having her fixed abode there. Could be her. But on another document the most touching note of all concerns Edith, “a lunatic”. After that, various other last names, two of whom declared, “We are not a spouse”. Who cares about these late-comers in the second half of the the 20th century! My ghost now has a name.
Ghosts do not like renovations anymore than we do, but they have a harder time dealing with change. The change a ghost really needs is to rejoin his or her pals in the firmament. Letting go of their unfinished business here on earth.
Laughing here – well, yes, but some of us seem singularly unable to drop such attachments. Kindness helps as it did me recently to the extent that I enjoyed writing this, for once unattached to worries. We were kind to Edith.
I want to read more!
Thanks.I was thinking of doing a few more posts about living there.